Missing my Hubby...Remembering Debbie

So this weekend my sweet Daviss in in the Virgin Islands. St. Croix to be exact. And of course, my Angel Baby Caroline could just not permit me to go along- not to mention my fear of flying (an understatement). The reason he is there is to officiate the beach destination wedding of our Miss Debbie's daughter, Ashley. It hurts my heart to not be there, but I know that she is having a wonderful wedding and I am so happy for her.

Missing my hubby to me means that things just aren't quite the same here without him. My world seems to be slightly off-kilter. Food doesn't taste the same, TV isn't as fun to watch, I don't sleep as well, I don't get very much adult conversation, and I have no one to turn to and say, "It's YOUR turn," when the kids are yelling and fighting yet again. As some of you know, this particular time has been much worse than before when he has been gone, and God has chosen for some reason to test me in ways that I didn't think I was prepared for. But I was wrong. I have learned that God has His own plans and who am I to argue? Bottom line is that while sometimes it is nice to have some time to myself in my marrriage, it is even better to be with my hubby.

As for remembering Debbie, I had a wonderful dream last night which was the night before Ashley's wedding. I walked into a room and there was Debbie as alive as ever staring at me. I ran to her and we held each other and sobbed and sobbed. I cannot tell you how real this dream was. I could see her, feel her, smell her, and hear her telling me she loved me. I showed her our Angel Baby Caroline and we talked and I realized that she hadn't died at all, but had gone away so that her loved ones wouldn't have to see her suffer. I woke up soon after and of course realized it wasn't real, but I still feel like God gave me a glimpse of her- my "fix" I guess. I had been praying the last few days for something to happen for Ashley while she was in St. Croix. I hope she has felt Debbie's presence the way I did. I know Debbie is smiling down on her as proud as she can be.

All About Mom

This is a questionairre I found on my friend, Sally's blog a few months ago. I thought it was appropriate for Mother's Day. So I sat down with my kids and asked them these questions about their mom. My thoughts are in the parenthesis after theirs.

What is one thing Mom always says to you?
Charlie- You ask me to take care of Caroline.
Madeline- I Love You.

What makes Mom happy?
C- If I clean my room.
M- Giving you a flower.

What makes Mom sad?
C- If I don't clean my room.
M- Not giving you anything.

What makes Mom laugh?
C- When I tickle you.
M- Tickling you.

What was Mom like as a child?
C- I don't know, I wasn't even born yet!
M- With curly hair. (umm.. nope)

What is Mom's favorite thing to do?
C- Take pictures.
M- Picking flowers for me.

What does Mom do when you're not around?
C- Watch TV. (unfortunately one of my vices.)
M- Clean the dishes.

If Mom were famous, what would it be for?
C- Taking pictures. (He hates taking pictures, can you tell?)
M- A rock star. (wow)

What is Mom good at?
C- Taking care of Caroline. (awww!)
M- Playing the computer.

What is Mom not very good at?
C- Doing school with me. (Yikes! Gimme a break- it's only our first year!)
M- Not buying a pet horse. (!!!)

What does Mom do for a job?
C- Doing school with me.
M- Cutting my hair.
(If only I COULD get paid for these!)

What is Mom's favorite food?
C- Your strawberry cereal. (Special K)
M- Strawberries. (This is really her fave. My fave? Chocolate and Italian.)

Why are you proud of your Mom?
C-You're the greatest Mom! (awwwww again!)
M- Cleaning the whole house. (yikes again!)

If Mom were a cartoon character, who would she be?
C- Gwen on Ben 10 Alien Force. She has orange hair and a pink force field. (Wouldn't that be cool?)
M-A rock star.

What do you and Mom like to do together?
C- School. (I feel better now.)
M- Putting dirty clothes in the washer.

How are you and Mom the same?
C- We love each other the same amount.
M- Our feet. (God, please don't let her get my feet!)

How are you and Mom different?
C-You're older than me.
M-I don't have the same shirt as you.

What is Mom's favorite place to go?
C- Hope's house to see Miss Mandy. (Probably true- also Starbuck's and Children's Place)
M- Dairy Queen and Tres Ninos.

How do you know Mom loves you?
C- You always hug me.
M- You help my boo boo feel better.
(more awwws!)

Out of the mouths of babes.

Mini-Me

I dance; she dances.

I brush my hair; she rubs her head.

I play peek-a-boo; she plays peek-a-boo.

I blow a kiss; she blows a kiss.

I put on my shoes; she gets her shoes.

I shake out a shirt to fold; she shakes a shirt.

I yell at the kids; she tells 'em too.

I sing the Barney Raindrop song; she sings the "Ah's."

I read a book; she "reads" a book.

I write; she tries to write.

I laugh; she laughs.

I cuddle; she cuddles.

I love; she loves.

Miracles without end.

Thank You, Lord.